Filex. Its an odd name really - FitX makes more sense for a FITness eXpo, but where does Filex come from?

I didn't even know it existed until last year, but its the biggest Health and Fitness Conference and Exhibition in the Southern Hemisphere!  I had no idea!

Have I been hiding under a rock all this time?

Well no, you see what you have in your life depends on what you are focused on at the time. 2 1/2 years ago I was focusing on having a good time and we all know where that led me!  This time in 2010 I was utterly focused (obsessed??) on climbing Mt Kilimanjaro - so training for that became my life, and a happy accident of that was a complete body transformation. This time last year a run of bad things and I tipped into depression, but it was finding the lump in my armpit that really brought my overall health - both mental and physical sharply into focus.

And that is when I came across Filex...

I think I may have got to the root cause of all my injuries and why they're not healing...

my butt doesn't work!

or more precisely my gluteus maximus, gluteus medius, and gluteus minimus are switched off...completely.

Not a quiver, not a twitch...

   Ok I'm pissed off today, in fact I'm livid. Lets look at what has made steam pour out of my ears.

'Try eating white fish for a few weeks...just to see how you go', 'Only eat 30g of greens per meal', 'Don't eat spinach - its too high in sodium', 'Expect to feel like shit'

look fairly innocuous so far doesn't it? well no. It isn't. Not in my book.

 I've been tucked up in bed all day Friday, yesterday and today - resting. Probably not how I'd usually spend Easter, but nevertheless I'm probably doing the right thing. A bit of quality down time with me, myself and I...

...and then I will be able to sit at World restaurant on Southbank, with a secret smile on my face, knowing how good life is...and just maybe...  :-)

  So its been a bad week mentally and physically. I've put myself through the whole range of emotions - despair, hopelessness, doubt, frustration, anger, fear, grief and apathy - its exhausting and while you're in that mindset all you can see is the problem.  By Thursday I reached apathy and exhaustion - numbness - and that is the point when I finally began to let go of the problem and opened the door to acceptance. I accepted that my situation is what my situation is. I then decided to take responsibility for the situation. Once you do that, then you can pave the way for alternative types of thinking - Solution Based Thinking...

 This week has been a difficult week. On Monday there was the double physio session...OUCH. On Tuesday laser treamtent on my hammies. Wednesday brought the second blood injection in my elbow and a double cortisone shot into my left hip. Thursday was hip xrays and Chiropractor and Friday cortisone into my right hip...Walking, sitting, standing, and anything to do with my arms...none of it is easy...